hii i feel a bit better from last time but my best friends boyfriend is honestly being really rude to me when ive done nothing to him i gen dont know what i did wrong. also reached out to one of my old crushes to be friends again and he seemed like he wanted to be friends too but then he said he was interested in talking even if were friends. he said i used him for emotional suppoert when we were younger, i honestly think i didnt but i did vent to him sometimes because i was going through things and i trusted him i was and plus i was a dumb 14 year old but whatever i apologized and i honestly feel like such a bad person now i never meant to harm him in any way but i did it without even realizing while trying to get help. everything seems to be falling apart and i dont know what to do its like the more i age the worse my life gets. im so tired. i hate myself for hurting him without realizing. atp i think im the problem. if anyones actually reading this, thank you for reading and im sorry for ranting this website is like my comfort place when i dont know who to talk to and need to be honest. but i dont think ill be making it past 19.

hey so um i dont have anyone to talk to about this but i feel like i fucked up really badly and ive had that thought in for a few years now, i feel like i ruined my life by smoking and it just hurts me i couldve kept so many of my friends and most importantly my best friend. its been a year since we cut all contact and i still miss her and im reminded by her every day i feel like im gonna have a panic attack im scared im sorry im typing so much i need this off my chest i feel like i fucked up so badly and i hate myself for it

hihi this is my first diary post and i just wanna say i feel horrid. lemme explain, ive had this best friend for sometime now and i started having feelings for her and i told her two days ago and she said she feels the same way but then today she told me she didnt see a future with me and it just hurt me but i dont care about that i just want things to go back to normal again but shes acting weird now so idl whats gonna happen im just worried. damn i already feel better if youre reading this and you also feel horrid try writing a blog anonymously cuz god damn i feel like wights were just lifted from my shoulder phew

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